After an unsettling discussion she had with him over a cup of filter coffee that evening, she found it extremely difficult to sleep. And how could she, after breaking somebody’s heart? And especially when she held it so close to her own?
So she asked him to write her something that night.
And what he wrote to her, gave way to a series of emails from the both of them…a terrible mix of random things half in sleep and half in despair, with only one thread that tied it all together: filter coffee.
And thus it began…
HIM, 12:59 AM:
“Do you like filter coffee? I do. I even like people who like filter coffee. I had one today with a special person. We talked about some things that are going to define/change our lives — at least mine. I was deeply sad, but I wanted to smile. I wanted to smile because I wanted to see her smile. I wanted to see her smile because when she smiles and laughs unarmed, she takes me away with her too. How nice it would have been if she never was sad, and always smiled, even if she was away from me. Maybe, she too was forcing a smile — who knows! Who knows! But I want to have a filter coffee with her every day. With her, and no one else. I am a calm person, increasingly now, but she brings an energy that I think complements my demeanour. I love her, I do love her. She completes me, but she says she will never be mine — and that’s why I want to hate her now, really hate her.”
HER, 1:23 AM:
“Do you like filter coffee? I do. I absolutely love how you can have serious, life changing conversations over a tiny cup of coffee.
A marriage proposal? A casual interview? Turning down a marriage proposal? A break-up?
You can take little breaks in between to kill the severity of the whole thing- here my coffee arrives, here’s putting in sugar, here’s mixing it with a steel spoon for a whole minute, here is taking one small sip while the other person is speaking, here is another sip just to add some mystery before you start speaking…and who knows when I might need to add some more sugar? The uneasiness of the conversation wholly dissolves in the sweetness of the coffee. At least for a while.
I had one such difficult conversation today. And I survived, along with my cup of coffee. At least for a while.”
HIM, 1:54 AM:
“The last time I had filter coffee outside Delhi was when I was travelling in the South, primarily Kerala. Over these coffees, and on the sidelines, I bumped into some interesting people, and had some very interesting experiences. I met a man who runs more than 50 educational institutes in the region, a Mexican-American girl who was then living in Korea and teaching English there — she was there with her BF but for some reason she said he was gay. I met a person who was producing Malayalam version of Coke-Studio.
It was raining that day, so I went for a long drive with a friend on some fancy bike, and could see Arundhati’s ‘God’s Own Country’ – and were brought back from the fantasy only after being challaned for not wearing a helmet. There was one person who took me on a tour in a small rural district, which has a majority of Muslims, and till recently was one of the most backward districts in India, but is now one of the most innovative one and perhaps the first fully-digital district. I met some smart young men who eventually got into AIIMS and IIT. (And I stayed once in a Jamat rest house). I met two kids, one of them was married with a kid and was back to college because her husband and in laws were supportive, which would have been unthinkable just a decade back in the district. I watched football world cup match with rowdy, but affectionate, young locals in the middle of the night. I lost my way once in the darkness of the night in a tribal area with rain falling badly and no one to ask for directions — wrongly entered someone’s private complex, and got chased away by dogs 🙂 I went to a village where the villagers were so mad about football that the world’s highest football body, FIFA, sends them world cup replica and souvenir before every World Cup. I went to their beaches every evening and sat there for long hours, reading or thinking or just listening to nature’s music. I lived in Fort Kochi for a few days; it was quiet cheap but I realised that people were more receptive towards goras 🙂 I spent a day in the end of India — Kanyakumari– where seas start, and I watched sunset from a tower. It was a windy evening, and I was alone — had one of the most serene evenings of my life, with my favourite songs playing on my phone. And returned to Thiruvananthapuram the same evening by bus, with a drizzle throughout the journey (I was supposed to see wind power machines along the way, but fell asleep).
I would love to go back to these places again with someone I enjoy spending my time with — of course, it would be livelier; her presence is bound to make it so. Throughout the journey, filter coffee and beef and parantha’s at Indian Coffee House were my sole companions”
HIM, 1:57 AM:
“Also, someone took me to a boy who was a second topper of AIIMS. He had a younger sister who was studying for BDS. They thought I am her boyfriend and have come to do a reccee. It was an interesting evening but was uncomfortable in the beginning. I pretended I was fasting — it was Ramzan– and also had to go for Namaz with them.”
HER, 2:22 AM:
“On one of his online shopping sprees, my father accidentally ordered a huge pack (considering my addiction to coffee) of filter coffee, without a filter, of course. It was lying in a shelf in my kitchen, unattended and unwanted for almost a year until I randomly came across an article on Facebook with super easy tricks of making filter coffee without a filter (coffee, just like the universe must have its way). Now how could I resist a solution to the decaying coffee like that? I took it out, thinking I’d better experiment with it rather than letting it rot. So I did. First a paper napkin, then a towel and finally after trying a handkerchief as a potential filter for the coffee- I succeeded in making a good cup of coffee after the first few days of the experiment. My disapproval for going out to have coffee and this quick fix came together and I began work on perfecting the art of coffee making. It was therapeutic, the process of filtering coffee, only letting the essence of it in the cup…
Soon, filter coffee became routine. I would fix myself a cup of coffee almost everyday and read. Sometimes I watch Netflix while having coffee, but mostly I read. Drinking a warm cup of coffee and reading- it feels as if you are in the pages of an old classic novel, doesn’t it? I make much better filter coffee now. I am even planning to get a real filter for my coffee. Anyway, enough of plain old banter. It’s time for a confession now. Since I met you, I have had a slight change of heart. How bad is a couple hundred bucks if it allows you a few hours of utmost peace with overflow of conversations? Expensive, capitalistically marketed to maximize profits, overrated and exploitative coffee at a coffee shop in exchange for a few words of love?
Excellent deal, if you ask me.”
And wasn’t it, a beautiful deal…and an even more beautiful night?